So this blog is my therapy. I have several reasons for not seeking out traditional counselling. I haven't kept a journal for years because of people snooping through it. OK...so then why am I keeping a blog, that is visible to anyone, from anywhere and yet I won't keep a journal...easy...you don't know me.
If I was to write in my journal and someone were to read it, they know before they begin that the thoughts they are about to read, no matter how poignant or ridiculous, are mine. Too personal. With this blog, the thoughts are still the same but only I know who they belong to. Tricky, right!?
OK...so therapy for becoming a better person and ridding myself of bad energy, I seem to have an over-adundance. I need to get motivated. How do you do that? I have watched the Olympics and some of the paralympics, and feel inspired and touched by the athletes abilities, courage and strength, yet I cannot materialize that inspiration into action. I need to find the motivation to get out of my house and live. I don't do very much of that. There's reasons, or excuses, that always prevent it. I don't feel like listing the reason right now.
*Wow, I am actually filtering what I am writing. Is that good or bad. I started listing reasons/excuses relating to the above, and the deleted them. I think I feel too silly to put them into words. You don't even know me and I can't tell you my nagging insecurities. Weird.
I do have somewhat of a life. I can't let on to the people that are in it that this is how I feel and that I am actually writing a blog about it. So to keep up apperances, we should continue this at a later date.
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